Old School

In the Great Change of the Sun

Meteoroid flashes across the midnight sky

trailing bright arc of atoms and electrons colliding.

Meanwhile in multiple pools of dark water held in limestone curves

stars and planets reside.

This is our 'hood....

Visceral Reflections

A Dancing Cosmology Dedicated to Peace and Transformation

Viscerally through the body way my innards 

reveal me to me.

Reflection is all there is. Divine Shiva looking in his mirror.

Dancing is my soul released seaside bonfire side earth side of 

full moon and eclipses.

Cosmology is all there ever was and all there ever will be. This bitty planet amidst the entire universe. This even bittier me part of all there ever will be.

Dedicated my life to god walking as a vessel, 

beloved child, 

servant of Greatest Spirit.

Peace infiltrating everything through our very cells, and if only a human could wish for peace in themselves they would be doing the work.

Transformation is simply waking up to the wonder of what is.

Who is The Witness?

Who is my Witness? God(dess) is my Witness. The Higher Self, True Self, Isvara seated in my heart. Witnessing this experience in the human body, as a lab experiment, I am so curious. With an artist’s eye for texture, line, rhythm, feeling the body, unraveling her mysteries: the mysteries of this particular form, the mysteries of the universe. My whole story told in this body: Dancing Bhaktini Mermaid!

My witness is the Curious One. Like a scientist poking around the question “What happens when I try this?” Being interested in what might be revealed, what might occur in the physical or emotional experience or spiritual realms. How is prana moving, life force waking up? Not just the breath in and out, prana and apana, but vyana prana circulating in the nadis of the sheaths, the rivers and cells of this form that make muscles, tissue, bones and fascia remember. Concentrating on sensation the mysteries begin to unfold, The Heroes Journey. Discriminative wisdom is helping me to see, to differentiate my thoughts from the rest of the bliss.

These storehouses of information, our bodies hold all imprints of this life, the bumps and bruises, misinformation, patterns of our parents, blood patterns of ancestors: latent impressions, samskaras. Our bodies in its layers and sheaths hold the emotions, the heart, the mind, our soul. Refining our vision to the vast inner horizon of our being, of our pranic force, it is possible to consciously move into the cellular level to re-program our dna. That is science.

Awakening is the process of uncovering and shining the light of compassion and non-judgment into these imprints and layers, to heal, becoming Whole, Holy, One; of making the unconscious Conscious.

Like an artist, showing up with materials in hand, my Witness observes the unfolding of a creation in this moment, and this moment and this moment……………

On the path to liberation, to kaivalaya, to moksha it’s critical to learn to See, to become a Seer/Witness of our own experience. And as we begin to know our own experience and begin to experience the divine as the SEER, it starts getting juicy. This is where the mysteries unveil, where the mystic crosses the threshold. And as we begin to see our own essential self and reality as it is, perhaps our vision clears and we one another with more kindness, compassion and acceptance, reality as it is.

Under the Influence

Over the last few years, there have been many occasions when people will ask how I ended up teaching yoga in Akumal, Mexico. When a dear friend, Kim Zanti, turned it into a list of questions for her blog, it became a nice opportunity to focus and write about Living with Intention.

Please visit her blog Zuzu's Petals

Dharma

Dharma. Every day it seems I am asked similar questions. How long have you lived here (Akumal, Mexican Caribbean)? Where do you come from? How did you get here?

And mostly, my answers are pretty straightforward for the first two: 3 ½ years (now), and San Francisco. There are many answers that say one thing for “How did you get here?” God is how. Divine guidance, inspiration; asking for what I wanted and being willing to ride the ride towards it. I am a dancer who has practiced many magical leaps of faith.

The turtles also got me here. Akumal means place of the turtle, or home of the turtle because these shores are nesting grounds for Loggerhead and Green turtles. And Akumal Bay hosts a number of teenage Green turtles who feed on a type of sea grass and hang out with swimmers and snorkelers! The first night I spent here and for the rest of the week of vacation in paradise, we witnessed giant mama turtles crawling out of the sea to dig a deep hole, shoveling sand away with her humungous flipper, to make a smaller hole. My very first experience was seeing Her in the glaze of releasing her eggs, watching them drop one by one into the deep space in the sand she had created. That was truly one of the most privileged moments of my life, to be in that presence, to witness this precious event. 

Learning that a marine sea turtle returns annually to the place where she hatched, from migrations that scientists still don’t know, and that these girls were in a lineage that was perhaps 10,000 years old, altered my reality. Add to that the impact of the 21^st century on these endangered creatures and the voice of my Mama, the Earth said, you have work to do here. She called, she opened a door. I listened and walk on through.

After some pretty radical leaps of faith, this particular one landing me in paradise, it is interesting to observe the anticipation for what is next. Leaping in stillness to be exactly here where I am is all I can do at the moment. I spend my days loving Divine Creation, finding gratitude, diving and digging deeper and deeper into the Yoga. The daily practices, teaching, and chores keep me present and engaged.

These are some elements in my story. The story is The Search for Happiness, or more like Pretty Dang Happy, Now What Am I Supposed to Do? Is the quest really over? What do we do when we are not questing?  Finding joy, contentment, a simple life gives me great happiness. Now the question is how to BE in that.